Let Thy Mantle Fall of Me
Let Thy Mantle Fall of Me
A Double Portion of Your Spirit Lord
Let Thy Mantle Fall of Me
(Floyd W. Hawkins)
Songs 3:4 -
I Found Him, I held Him and I Would Not Let Him Go!
The
last few weeks God the Father has been moving upon my heart and has wrought in
me almost an unprecedented victory. I say almost because many times I have had
victory in the past only to be knocked down again by self-interest and the
willful nature in me so this is familiar ground to me. It began about the time I had a
vision of the Father, I did not see His face but rather His form and His left
hand, my whole focus was on His left hand which was at chest level, He slowly
moved His hand towards His chest just as one would if they were beckoning
someone to come closer. I recall having a sense of pleasure in my spirit as I
saw this. Whilst we remember the right hand of God as the hand of blessing
there is something about His left hand that made me feel as though He was
drawing me to Himself, it gave me a sense of warmth and love. There are, of
course several verses that come to mind about the left hand. There is the
portion in the Song of Solomon where Solomon’s left hand was under the
Shulamite's head and with the right hand he embraced her Songs 2:6 “His
left hand is under my head, and his right hand doth embrace me." I am not
saying this is literally what God does with us I am simply implying it is a
sign of closeness and affection much like we see as John leaned on the breast
of Jesus. The left hand is also indicated in the priesthood to have a certain
function, there is the cupped left hand of the priest which held the anointing
oil. It became the reservoir the priest used to dip his right hand
into and so the left hand is associated with the anointing. Lev 14:15
"And the priest shall take some of the log of oil, and pour it into
the palm of his own left hand:" ; Lev 14:16 "And
the priest shall dip his right finger in the oil that is in his left hand, and
shall sprinkle of the oil with his finger seven times before the LORD:"
Ever since this experience Gods hand has been heavy upon me and I am seeking
Him almost night and day for fresh experience, a fresh breaking, a fresh
release and a fresh calling. It has been very dear to me but always, always in
the back of my mind is this thought, "Take care Frank, you have been here
before and the old nature has ruined it and His precious presence has left"
Remembering
our past failures is a good thing in this sense, the failures of the past give
us zeal to stay on the right path in the future. When we fall down we take note
of what it was before we fell down that led to our declination and defeat. We
consider our behavior, our thoughts and even our speech. All of this effort is to
avoid the potential failures of the future. Here is what I have observed, sin
is like a speeding train on a railroad track going the wrong way, once we jump
on, it takes us very far, very quickly away from our goal. Many times we have a
long wait before we can get back to where we started when we got off the right
path. There is a chorus to a song written by Harold McWhorter "Sin Will
Take You Farther" that goes like this: "Sin will take you
farther than you want to go, slowly but wholly taking control, sin will leave
you longer than you want to stay, sin will cost you far more than you want to
pay." It means that once we get off the right path we cannot always just change our
minds and turn back into the right path, we will go through different states
before we feel again the drawing of His Spirit. It can be very costly! Using
our train metaphor we may have to strive to get back jumping from
train to train, station to station to get back where we were; we search and
search and search, sometimes seemingly in vain that God would bring us back to
where we were before we stepped out of line. This is the experience the
Shulamite had when she rejected the Lord in the Song of Solomon Chapter 5: When
she rejected Him out of her own selfish desires, she eventually came to her
senses and ran to the door to meet Him, He was gone and she searched and
searched and could not find Him. She went about the city and had a rough time
of it as the watchmen smote her while she looked for her beloved whom she did
eventually find and clave to.
I
recall a sermon I preached once in my home church, it was on this portion of
scriptures from the Song of Solomon 5. I struggled in my spirit with the Lord
about this message, I said to Him: everyone who is going to be in church Sunday
morning is on the right path, they will feel I am saying they are not.
Nevertheless, the Spirit compelled me to give this message
on backsliding and how long it can take to return, I could feel
inspiration on nothing else. Even as I was on the platform I was struggling and
feeling uncomfortable about the message when in walked a young man who had
walked off the path many times in spite of many warnings. He came in sat down,
then I realized God had fashioned the message for him, we had not
seen him in quite a while and there was no reason for me to expect him to be
there but there he was. This is what the Lord said to Him, it came out in the
message though it was not in my notes (It was used in support of an
illustration on the Prodigal son, not directed directly at him but I knew it was God speaking to
him, I felt it): "Take care, because you have left the path It is going to
be a long, long time before you will get back to the sense of My presence"
It was because he had selfishly gratified himself instead of remaining faithful
to the Lord and he had done it many times. Sadly, he did not find the grace (as
many do not) and God has removed him and sent him onto a lesser path with a
lesser vision.
The
point is this, when God calls us to Himself He wants us to stay close to Him.
He does not want us to be drawn away by selfish desires, by worldly desires or
sinful desires. Right now God is drawing me (and I hope He is drawing you too)
and I am putting all my efforts into knowing what He wants from me and asking
for the grace to do it, I am remembering my past failures and taking steps to
avoid them. As I have been seeking Him He has been pouring out His grace and I
want it to continue. My hope is that the selfish things that took away
my victory in the past will be dealt with and the Spirit of adoption
whereby we cry Abba Father will compel me to ever follow Him more and
more so that we can walk together in a new sense of communion and fellowship.
Let me conclude with the title of this message and may it be our most
earnest desire: Songs 3:4 - I Found Him, I held Him and I Would Not
Let Him Go!